Wishing you the big 2-3!

Today is Miguel's 23rd birthday, and he still looks every bit of 22! I love this man so much and I want to make everything perfect for his birthday! My heart is filled with joy at the idea of making him smile, laugh, love on his birthday. I would travel to the end of the earth for this man. Happy birthday baby, it's going to be a long fun one!

To the world, you may be one person. But to me, you are the world.

Oh, how I love this man

To be completely honest, Miguel and I weren’t doing so well a little while ago. There was fighting, crying, and general aggravation all of the time. Of course, we were able to eventually talk through things and figure out what needed to be done, but it wasn’t always so clear. The arguments were about this and that, but they really boiled down to two simple facts:

1. I needed to realize some facts about myself, and accept them instead of taking them out on Miguel.

2. He needed to learn to work with me, not against, and share with me some of the things that were stressing him.

See, we both needed to work on our patience and understanding because in all reality the arguments were coming from within and not from the actual argument. So how did we finally come out understanding each other a little better? Heck if I know, but thank God we did! I guess sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you realize the truth of situations and not just what you keep telling yourself or want yourself to believe. I can’t really say what it was for Miguel, but for me I just woke up from my world and realized how much this man loves me and how much I want him to always love me. We had the chance to in a sense, fall in love with each other all over again, and boy did we!

All of this brought me to some enlightenment that I wanted to share. True, real life love is so new to me, and we are constantly learning new things about it. So what I learned this time is that the saying “It won’t always be perfect” is so spot on. What’s more, I don’t think that I want it to always be perfect because then I wouldn’t appreciate the great times as much as I do now. Love is absolutely not about being perfect; in fact I think it’s the complete opposite. It’s about mistakes and making them right, it’s about forgiveness and the chance to realize that you can forgive, it’s about laughter and crying, and it’s about aggravation and compromise and sacrifice, and most of all it’s about absolute lust, passion, and wet kisses. It’s messy and fun and I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world. I realized that maybe I should sacrifice some of my wants for the greater good, after all the pay off is amazing. It doesn’t mean that I loose my voice, but more like I just listen before I voice my opinion. How has stopping to listen to each other changed things? Well, how has it not? We talk about what’s going on, we talk about the important issues with out emotion. We talk and talk and talk, which is an important thing for a woman. We love, and love, and love, which is important for both of us. I can’t get enough of this man, and he can’t get enough of me. What’s more, all of this talking helps me to feel right, and to see things more clearly. Even though he hates me to say it, Miguel has really helped me to come a long way emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. So I look forward to growing with each other individually and together for a long, long, long time.

Happy 4th!

We decided at the last minute to go downtown to watch the Freedom over Texas fireworks show. It was amazing! They had some really unique fireworks including Saturn's, hearts, and some other shapes. There were bright colors, and some of them even looked like they would hit us (even though we were very far away)! We were actually supposed to go down there earlier for the entire event, but we decided to be lazy instead. While sitting here watching the concert on television I got this ting if regret for not going. So Miguel decided right then and there that we would high tail it down to see it! Isn't he such a wonderful man! I was going to add video of the fireworks, after all who doesn't like a fireworks show, but it's not working with me. I'll try to get it to work later!